Opening Up...my new found courage.
I finally have the courage to share my story with everyone. For those of you who have known me for awhile know I have struggled with my weight for a very long time. I always told myself I will never be that stranger who I saw walking down the street. Well, I was that stranger. I hit the weight I never thought I would and I knew I had to do something...it was time. That was 18 months ago...5 months ago, I changed my life. I had gastric bypass surgery. Before anyone can say that was the easy way out....I beg to differ. It has been a constant struggle for me....and it will be for the rest of my life. The surgery is a tool....it is not a cure-all. Obesity is a disease, just like alcohol and cancer. It is the number two killer behind all types of cancer. Sorry for the factual sidebar. My first two weeks were hell....my first month was hell....my second month was better, but rough. I went through a rigorous program where I worked on changing my eating habits, work on my emotional eating, went through a psychological evaluation and a bunch of other tests. My surgery was on a Monday and I was back in the hospital on Friday with severe dehydration. I really felt like I was going to die....I never want to be that dehydrated again. No matter how well I was prepared for the surgery, nothing can prepare you for the way you feel. I had to sip water constantly and I couldn't ....I forced myself to drink...and drink.....and drink. I kept telling myself "one day at a time". Sounds simple, but those were the hardest words I had to say. It was hard and at first I regretted my decision. Fast forward five months....today I have no regrets. Yes, I still struggle with my water and my protein and I still take "one day at a time". I think the hardest thing to wrap my head around was I just wasn't hungry...period. Food took on a different meaning...it was fuel and not comfort. I have started with a personal trainer....I really need someone to kick my butt (ha ha!) and hold me accountable to exercise ....yet another tool in my belt. So, if you are thinking this was the easy way out....you are wrong. I have a fantastic support group (friends, family and coworkers) and I could have not done this without their support. For that, I am truly grateful. Thank you. I am happy to report I have lost 88 pounds so far. I am excited to be at this weight (and buying limited new clothes is also a benefit). Here are a couple of before and recent pictures a dear friend of mine took (thanks Cynthia! it was a blast doing the photo opp!). I have to admit I was shocked to see the transformation so far. I feel great and I know there is more to lose and that is awesome. I am sorry this is so long, but I wanted to share with all of you. I hope this will inspire someone who is struggling with weight or anything actually. There is hope and support and love out there...you just have to want it so badly to make the change for yourself. I did and I wouldn't have it any other way. Just ask, please....it is worth every and all effort. Thank you for allowing me to share my journey so far. Remember..."It's ok to be scared. Being scared means you're about to do something really, really brave." God Bless you All.